You might remember my post, Are Homeschool Moms Just Control Freaks?
In it I confessed my desire to home educate my children. I also shared the pros and cons of public and private education.
When I found out that my wonderful husband did not share my same passion for homeschooling our children, I was crushed! But then, we discussed that we would pray about it.
Ahhhh yes, Lord, please change Tim's heart. I've prayed this for 3 months now. Guess what? Did you know that the Lord has a sense of humor? Oh yes He does. In just the past couple days, God has done a complete 180 turn of MY HEART! I am at total peace about actually sending our daughter to either Private or Public school next year. Homeschooling is indeed, OUT, for next Fall! (Lord willing).
I cannot explain it, but you've been there... Where the Lord speaks to you through His Word, and the Holy Spirit confirms things. He showed me that this was the path He had for our family at this time. He released me from my fears, my anxieties, my worries about what other "home-educated-moms" would think of me. He showed me these things:
- I love your Riley more than even you do.
- I have a plan for her life.
- You will still be a wonderful Mommy, even if you send her to school.
- You will still be in my will.
- You can STILL be her teacher, her number one cheerleader, her everything, even if she goes to school!
I'm actually excited about it! I so had MY HEAD wrapped around home schooling, that I'd never given the other 2 options much thought. I was convinced, that I had the desire to teach her, so I must need to home educate, right? No.
I will still be her teacher as I lovingly come along side her as she does her homework.
I will still be her teacher when I discipline and correct her.
I will still be her teacher when we discuss real-life events that occur at school.
I will still be her teacher when I pray, and instill God's Word in her heart, daily.
It's been totally eye-opening people! Do I still think home-educating her might be an option for the future? Oh yes. But not now. It's not in God's plan for our family and it's okay!
So dear friend, please know that after you have prayed about it as a family, and move forward with the decision God has given you, you will be in His perfect will as you are obedient to Him!
We are not all cookie-cutter Christians. We are not all cookie-cutter families, either.
What are your thoughts? Have you been wrestling and wrestling, wondering what you should do for your children?
Put the guilt-trips aside, and trust the Lord. He will show you. He will guide you. He will tell you. He will give you a perfect peace!
I love being their Mommy... a great and high calling to raise them up in the Lord!
(Since writing this post last year, my husband and I have decided to send our daughter to our local public school up the road. I will be involved and pay careful attention to what is going on. We just don't have the funds for private schooling.)